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What you see is what you get...nothing too complicated.Maybe abit jaded so handle with care... "I carry your heart with me I carry it in my heart"

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Banana. Chia jiayu.
SQ aka Tree Green. Wendy.
DK.
ShuXu. Glenda.
Mark JY. Zanfar. zhu zhu.
Skin. Zann.
NANA. Cindi.
SocktIng.
Zillieman.
Chelle's Blob.
Sher's.
LookBook.
SoDamnSalty.
yourboyhood. Wottoncool.
Reflections hotel. Fashionation.
Allprettythings. Bitna.
Fashion is a Spinach. Fashion toast.
kingdom of style.
Nitrolicious. PickedPics.
professionally Trendy. Sea of shoes.
self madeshirt. Spotstudio.
Square old soul. Stylebubble.
Fashion stylist. The clothes.
We wear things. Grannysnaps. Invpromisedyouarosegarden.
GiggleSpree. Bamboostereo.
MUffstitshop. Muffstit.
BonaDrag. MorrisonShop.
Toast. Stilettojoolz.
Giles & Bro. facehunter.
borderlinemag. Fashioni.
Garancedore Streetstyl.
helo world.
LUV GEN.
skinny.
yellowmellowfellow.
erotic.
ancro.
LETITBE.
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lovelybones.
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Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, my cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it.

Everyone says that love hurts, but that’s not true. Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

i did the best i could to fight for wht i want. the outcome was very much expected but its still abit hard to stomach. I can and i will get past this!

I am not as skinny,
I am not as hot.

I am not attractive,
neither am i smart.

But hey, i am good enough to give your heart a home.

If anyone comes over and give me a hug now I will break down like a baby!!!
LIFE IS HARD and its even harder when I realised that i am all tired to keep going...where is the TLC?!?!?

Absent make the heart fonder...but this is one lonely route to chose! AM I IN FOR IT?!?!

I have to hand in my ER essay on friday and i have yet started writing any single shit...seriously no good...i have decided to skip school tomolo for once just to get it done. 'cross fingers'

Just one look, just one smile...I am yours to have.

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.

Allie: Do you think our love, can take us away together?
Duke: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Duke: I love you, Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Duke: Good night. I'll be seeing you

HappyBIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

Heidi: What do you do If you like someone?
Joe: I like to touch them

I never thought that you will happen to me...eventually you did and at that time when I needed someone the most. But I can't keep you cos you aren't part of my plan...so please go and never come back...

“When hurt turns red and a piece of your heart is missing. When the cold bites deep and you’ve got that feeling like you just got out of surgery. When the only way to stay sane is to concentrate on anything else but how you feel. When you count the tiles in the ceiling. When you push the earphones closer. When the first day of winter arrives. When you remember every nuance of every word of every time. When all this happens. Embrace it. Feel every feeling. Cry every tear. Sob every sob. Because this is what it feels like to have loved.” -from that girl

“Men enjoy being thought of as hunters, but are generally too lazy to hunt. Women, on the other hand, love to hunt, but would rather nobody knew it.”

~ Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic’s Notebook, 1966ignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic’s Notebook, 1966

I realised that there are gaps in my memory I have chosen to forget. Good choice...

It's 2010 a whole new yr, a whole new chapter and a whole new beginning.

Well the sem had started for 2 weeks already and i still haven't adjust to the study mode yet. Cos it had been quite a roller coaster 2 weeks, grandfather admitted into ICU, friends flying back to aussie and a few other errands to run. Ok alright i always have time managment problem I am really working hard on it :P

I realised that at the end of the day, shopping impulsely is an Illiness!!!
I shop alot and i dont fully utilised all these things i bought and everytime i will
use shopping as a reason to de stress. At the it really work but when i over did it
i kill this fun activity!
I guess i dun really need those things i am getting them just to full up the emptness
in me!
Wht's there to be missing in me?
I have got a great family, and everything i need is all within my reach. What the hell
is really missing in my life????
Constancly search for new things make me feel so greedy and inhuman at time! DAMN IT!
SO does gg to melbourne make me happy?? i cant answer tt seriously??
Why are things getting all so complicated when I am all ready to focus and work hard for my study?

SUNDAY and me its like a love and hate affair...cos tts the only day i can really slack in bed but it go by so fast that the very next moment is MONDAY...:(

Looking at all these just make me go woooooooooo... However yours truly have too many untouch slippers/heels resting at home (approximately 20 pairs). I can't buy anymore or else I will be yell at :( and I dont have anymore space to store them anymore. Sigh...

looking out of my window...

Attended Mel surprise birthday party and they celebrate Bel and Kat bday (nov babies) at the same time cos bel's bday is the day after Mel as for Kat...(i have no idea:P)
Kind of excited that Shu xu is going to Melbourne next jan and i promised to visit her in 2010/2011.
Looking at them turning 20 doesnt make me wanna look forward for mine cos i'm gonna be another year older! Well its not so much the age I guess, its the unknown that make me ponder.
Shall see how things go then (keeping my fingers crossed!)

Stolen from Skin...;P

P.S. missing those days man!

You aren't going to be her first, her last, or her only. She's loved before, she will love again, but if she loves you now what else matters? Shes not perfect. You arent either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if she can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. She isnt going to quote poetry, shes not thinking about you every moment, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you could break. Dont hurt her, dont change her, dont expect more than she can give. Dont analyze. Smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad, and miss her when shes not there. Love hard when there is love to be had.

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

I got thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting,
challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.

Later that night I got to thinking about the x-factor. In mathematics, we learn that x stands for the unknown, a+b=x, but what's really unknown is what plus what equals friendship with an x. Is this an unsolvable equation? Or is it possible to transform a once passionate love into something that fits nice and easily onto the friendship shelf? I couldn’t help but wonder... can you be friends with an x?

My monday cannot be as horrible as this...agr!
I could'nt sleep that well the night before as I am having come stomach problem, when i got up in the morning i let it all out...On the way to school i have the urge to go to the toilet so i hurried my way to the school toilet and when i got there i am already SWEATIng like a mad cow. By the time i got to the office i look very untidy but i coulnt care less i want to the printing room and get the printing done befroe going to class.
OMG~~~printing job suck to the core!!! here am i panicking and try to get the job done...so paisah lah look so untidy in front of my boss...tts for the first few hours of the day...hope that things will be fine for me.GOD BLESS ME!!!!!!

Lindy & I (WE anti black black face monstor....HAHA!!)

"In general, lines are there for a reason. For security, for clarity. If you choose to cross the line, you pretty much do so at your own risk. So why is it that the bigger the line, the greater the temptation to cross it? We cant help ourselves. When we see a line we want to cross it. Maybe it’s the thrill of the unfamiliar, a sort of personal dare. The only problem is once that you’ve crossed, it’s almost impossible to go back. But, if you do manage to make it back across the line, you find safety in numbers."

Some days ... the whole world seems upside down. And then somehow, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again.

elf yourself!!!

In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say.
Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

Ok i am just being bored...creation of the day muahaha.

I didn't expected many things to happen like that...VERYlast day of yr3 sem1 i became so god damn famous (xian you should knw what i am referring to!) Well i just keep my fingers cross and hope that next and the very last sem things will go smoothly!!!

p.s. People ask me why do i blog so many post of the past days in a row. Reason because i usually do up the draft almost every other day. However, i am just too lazy or busy to login to post them. So ya!

Was at Tina's birthday party last week...was amazed by her birthday cake cos it cos$300!! It taste really sweet and I am very sure that by eating it everyone will at least gain a thosand or two calories.

Haha...my little cousin told me that mine birthday cake taste much nicer cos its much lighter as compared to her's. fOR a few secondS i seriously feel really SONG!!! haha
But i must say that the cake is very unique...N i supposed tts the reason why its so expensive.

Well after attending the party it really set me off thinking about my 30th birthday big bash...ok its not because i m dying to turn 30. To be it's like a different phrase of my life, so i expect it to be something great!!!

Hazell Darling


Marcus Tan aka handsome boy!


Little COnstance trying to reach for the hand dryer.

It had been a very busy week but it was all worth it as FYP is finally over. Before I welcome my FYP I am going to have all the fun that i want! Ok lets say more fun cos i am having fun everyday especially in class.

Ever since E35N this is the second class that make me go to the extreme and so tired at the end of the day. Thanks to people like Lindy, Tsz Yeung(Lang zi), PeiYun(Yun xiao jie), Ah Tong(TONG TONG) etc. They are my daily source of LAUGHTER, cos they will make me wanna suan them and of course i will be counter back by Lang Zi O2 skincare zhuan shu tian shi story lah. (you wouldnt want to know what is it about, trust me!!)

I must say that i miss out quite alot of fun with my Bitches, due to many factors like being in different class, fyp and we are busy with out own things. Hey bitches if you are reading this, let me tell you guys that there is no way i will forget anyone of you as you guys created such a crazy and maddest part of my poly life! Like what esther had said, "next time we bring our children and come to woodland for coffee and gossip!" (SHAKE HEAD...FAINT:p) Well, best wishes for all three of you for the next up coming fyp. Enjoy the process and work it out together ok! jia you jia you.

During banking lesson...(starting from the left, standing up...lindy, ben, tsz yeung, kenneth & rajinah)

Monsters! = endless joy, laugthers, love, care, support, encouragements and FRIENDSHIP!These 5 monsters are the joy of my life. They never fail to make my day and i enjoy every single moment spent with them. The 10 superpower that these monsters have:

1) As long as they are around, the most boring activities can still be filled with laughters and joy! :)

2) Even when u are feeling down, they would never fail to bring the smile back on your face. 3) And even when you're really tired, you would still want to meet up with them. 4) They always have a place in your heart.

5) They are the first group of people (besides your parents) you think of when you want to share your joy or pain with someone. And the best thing is, they would welcome them with open arms, even if it's your pain or trouble. And they brave through every storm with you

6) They don't mind going the extra mile for you.

7) They appreciate every little thing you do for them.

8) They give you the most radiant smile just when you needed one.

9) They make you feel like we are one family. ( the monsters family)

10) And finally, they are the greatest friends one can ever have!

It's difficult to find 1 friend who has the above factors. Yet, i have 5, who have all of the above!!!! What more can i ask for, other than hoping that we'll be friends for life! :)

Labels: my class chalet(e24b) so much fun tt i missed out.

WARNING!!! People please do not eat anything from this shop. cos I got food poisioning after taking this desert on the right.

What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.

Labels: From jeff...its so beautiful that i tear while listening to it

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the two R's... relatives, and romance. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.

I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

Life is not a spectator spot win, lose or draw the game is in progress whether we want it or not.
Want to win always go back to the basic. So go ahead and agree with the rest, change the rule, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds.
Play hard, play fast, play loose and free. Play as if there is no tomorrow. So it’s not the matter of winning or losing. Is how you play the game.

Hana...i did this there as well. My parents didn't notic
it until last night(i had this for 3 days) I wonder
if the color is not bright enough or they are blind...hoohoo

I bought this from chinatown @ $15
and lindy say it will make my room look like
red like distrike...faint...and i am selling
CHICKEN RICE...wtf

I may not go to Heaven, but I am a little closer to it when I am with you...

Remember i want you to call me? I want to tell you that whatever problems you have I am willing to face it with you. Cos i believe we can go throught thick and thin.
Please understand the fact that no one is perfect!
I LOVE THE WAY YOU ARE....

But the moment you say , "Dear can give me some time, i am not ready. Just be close and best friend till we both are comfortable and know each other well..."
I knew I am going to lose you...And i had lost you...

Many people will walk in and out of my life,
You are one of those who will leave footprints in my life.

I am rather excited today as tonight i am going for my birthday celebration, beside that i am going to give away my christmas blessings to my friends.

Woo hoo....cheers!!!

Love Should come in little pieces and gems
Never give too much of it away too soon,
too fastA carrot on a stick
A prized draw you bet a few cents on
You should never give yourself away
Love should never be whole
It should never be complete
Because if you give it all at once
You lose more than you can take.

HOW OFTEN do i go GAGA over a actor?!?!

I hated falling sick especially getting flu, it really make me so umcomfortable.
I always tell my friends that, if you're sick and all alone it make things even more miserable.
I am always alone when I am not well, my parents will only come in and ask if I am fine. Which in fact i always look fine even when i am dying!! HAha
I wonder if people know how wonderful it is to have someone or anyone to be around you to look after you when you are at the weakest stage...sick!
Anyway i am used to it already even though i long for someone to change the cold towel on my forehead when i am running a fever, or even let my cry when i am in pain...a hug will be just nice...haha (greedy!!)
Alright i am signing off already....ciao!

面对了真实忍不住了痛楚
爱上一个人爱得走投无路
你自责的痛你两难的苦
爱到情无反顾
我反而看的清楚
曾经相伴要走要走天涯的路
一生一世承担承担彼此的苦
爱就爱了全部断要断得清楚
爱不了的宽恕梦不到的幸福
终于也走到结束

歌手：周华健 歌曲：终于